Organization . . . My prerequisite for creativity

"I will sit at my easel with the intention of painting, but the outcome will result in me spending hours organizing & straightening things. Apparently I'm more interested in optimizing the creative experience than the creative experience itself."

I've been yearning to create lately. It affects my job performance, my grades, and my social life adversely when I don't do enough creating. I'm usually referring to painting or drawing, but I'm also getting into fashion design, and creative writing as well. For me it's become more of a matter of elevating and preserving the relationship between reflection and expression. In Psychology class I learned a new term that refers to altering information to increase memory retention. This is known as encoding. Expressing one's thoughts and experiences involves lots of interpretation, which is what encoding is. My goal is to encode as much sensory data as I can for the purpose of extracting and sourcing it for inspiration. Think about people who drink their urine to make use of the excess vitamins that would have been flushed down the toilet otherwise. In order to feel confident that I am performing at or above my potential volume and quality level I need to be able to recover each and every event, thought, and/ or conclusion that I experience in expectancy of recovering inspiration and securing this mindset by interpreting it into art and therefore encoding the sensory data and elevating my creative intelligence. I need to be very organized to accommodate such a complex system of creation. Sometimes I wonder if such a system even exists, or if it would be to tedious to yield anything. Organizing has become an obsession. I will sit at my easel with the intention of painting, but the outcome will result in me spending hours organizing & straightening things. Apparently I'm more interested in optimizing the creative experience than the creative experience itself.